My Ways

And I’ve always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I swore to myself
that I’m content with loneliness,
because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Lost

Anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.

If Only

"That's the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink. If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happend you drink to make something happen."

if only he knew...

So this is what it feels like to have a friend slip through my fingers and out of my life.

At Some Point

Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night's sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way too.

Unfair

How come all of a sudden, someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. They just leave you hanging like you never meant shit to them, and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy.

Afraid

You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it's all really worth it. Not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing th purpose. It's like when you're little and you touch the stove and get burned, because you didn't really know that it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the very beginning.

Sometimes

I really don’t know what you want from me. I’m trying my best. I really am. But it feels like what I’ve been doing for you means nothing to you. And it hurts. Can you, just this once, be the one chasing me?