Staying Away

Be vulnerable but stay away from where it hurts

Never Coming Back

It almost seems like when we grow closer, you become scared. So you push me away. You're afraid to get hurt again. Instead, I'm the one that gets hurt. Guess what? This time I'm not coming back.

My Ways

And I’ve always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I swore to myself
that I’m content with loneliness,
because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Simplicity

I think life is simpler than we tend to think. We look for answers and more answers. But there are no answers. Things happen in life, good things and bad. People say, “why did it happen to me?” Well, why not? Some people win the lottery, and others die in a car crash. It happens, and there is nothing we can do about it. The universe doesn’t care what happens to you.

Today

was just a very bad day.

from start to finish.

i can't even explain it.

i'll continue my blissful blogs tommorow.

today is just not the day.

sorry.

No Where to Go

Because sometimes there is no easy way out. You just have to grin and bear it. Sometimes the only escape route is to go straight through the flames. Just brace yourself and bite your lip. Sometimes you have to sever the ties clean off. Because in every relationship, there comes a point when the damage is too much and no matter how good it once was, the memories can’t sustain you. You have to save yourself knowing all the while it will hurt like hell. Because you can’t keep giving someone everything if you get nothing in return.

That Reason

It’s okay that you don’t have that kind of courage. The important thing is you’re alive. And life hurts sometimes and sometimes it can be hard, but it won’t always be that way. There’s gotta be a reason for you to live.

Wants

When we are first born, all we know is how to want, we want food we want attention, natural instinct I guess. But kindness is something that we all have to learn as we go. It's something that grows and develops slowly over time... true kindness isn't something we are born with, it's something we have to work at, we have to mold it and shape it within ourselves, not everyone has it, but I think everyone has the potential.

The Good and The Bad

It’s astonishing how fast people come in and out of your life. One moment, they’re like your best friend. They text and call you constantly. They understand you. You guys know each other inside and out. They’re like your missing piece. And then one misunderstanding arises and the next moment, it’s like you guys are strangers. No more good morning text. No more laughs. No more of those inside jokes. Nothing. It’s like all of those precious memories vanished into thin air. What happened? Why is it so hard to find one good friend and so easy to find many bad ones?

Thankful

• I have my family.
• I have someone to call my bestfriend.
• My entire being still standing on this Earth.
• I know a tleast one person cares for me with all their life.
• I have a shelter above my head.
• I have food on the table.
• A vehicle I can drive.
• A bed to lay on. And another day to wakeup to.

         All I can ever ask for. I’m thankful.

Life Lessons

I've learned that life isn't all it's cut out to be. It has it's ups and it's down. But, you have to embrace those ups and downs and learn from them. You can't just sit back and mope and make people have pity for you. You have to put those things that are hurting you aside and live. You only get one life, and that one life isn't that long. You have to do everything that comes your way. Yeah, you might get embarrassed, but in a month., no one will remember. You have to do what you feel is right. You can't worry about other people. Just live life how you would want to live it. Don't follow examples, make them. Let people follow in your footsteps.

One of Those Days

I feel like today was just one of those days. Like a down right bad day. I have so much anger built up inside that I feel like I'm going to burst and I don't know why or where its coming from. I could possibly kill someone I have so much anger. I feel like I'm slowly drifting away from my best friend. He's busy with work, which I completely understand and other activities. But it feels like ages since I really talked to him. Or since he's really talked to me. Its been bugging me for quite sometime now. I know something is up that he's not telling me. Which again sucks because I'm leaving Friday for two weeks and god knows what going to happen then. And then, I'm 100% percent, without doubt, eternally, for damn sure I got a 17% on my physics test. Sister bitched at me. Again. And dad might have a blood clot in his leg. So all this just came crumbling down on me today. Can you really take it one day at a time? Because ignoring the future doesn't make it go away.

Always

I wanna give up so much, but I know that deep down, I can’t. These conversations we have when we fight like this gets us nowhere. I hate the fact that you don’t even try to fix it. I feel like I’m the only one trying. But you know what? I’m too weak to even try anymore. If you love me, then you’ll fix it. Because I am sick of always being the one to chase after you. And being the one to always say sorry even though I know that I didn’t do shit. I should be saying all of these complaints to you, but I know what your response will be like. It’s always the same, and I don’t even wanna try explaining myself to you anymore. I’m gonna wait til you come to me and apologize sincerely, which will probably take a day or a few. Like always. So from now on, you can be the one chasing. I give up.

Some Days

-you have to keep your head up no matter

how much the weight you carry inside.

There are times when we need that special

person in our life to help us get through the

thickness of the world, and times when all

you need is yourself. For me, I need that person.

To tell me everything will be all right.

To show me that there is someone that cares.

To give me a hug and protect me from the

ongoing pain. To stay by my side so I have a

shoulder to cry on. But there are those days…

those days that I just want to be able to think

by myself. So that I can learn to stand by my own.

Though I’m not always able to stand on my own,

I can rely on that special person and they will forever

and after be there. Not some days, but most days.